With my blog I have always wanted to it to be me and 100% real.

I've been the mean girl and the bullied. 

Both sides of the spectrum are not fun. at. all. 

Teenage years are rough. Shoot even first college years are. I am not proud of some of the decisions I made or the ways I acted. I think it was my 'training wheels' of learning to be a mother and to raise a daughter. I pray I don't get payback for some of the things I did to my own mother.(sorry mom I knew not what I was doing.) Oh what I would do to keep Brynn in a bubble while growing up. I know I can't do that. I will strive to raise a strong, modest, kind, people loving, Jesus out-pouring daughter. I fell short of those things many times and I am sure somewhere along the way she may too. I want to do what I can to not have her do the same though. It's my desire for her to learn the way Jesus loves her and sees her. That way she can love and see people the same. I want Brynn to know that she is perfect in Gods image regardless of what people may say to her. I want to continue to keep my actions in check for her. The mimicking has begun and will continue to get stronger. Children want to be like their parents, those they look up to. It is my job to be the best I can be for her. 

I know that I am just in the beginnings of tough parenting decisions. I pray I can continue to be an example for her. 

These 'training wheels' are still on as I continue to learn how to be THE mother for OUR daughter. 

Mom-shaming

A huge reason I dislike social media is due to mom-shaming and the competitive discussions between mothers. I have had to get out of a lot of mom Facebook groups and unfriend people due to that. Death threats due to cloth diapers and circumcision? That is awful and not something I want to be a part of.

SO, maybe I fell short and snapped back to a mom being forth coming about something to do with Brynn. I know that I would never put Brynn in danger and that I was not doing anything wrong. This mother jumped to conclusions before knowing the facts. ALL because of a photo posted on Facebook. Like, give me a break.

Bottom line, as mothers we should be here to lift each other up and encourage each other. Days get hard. Really hard. Mothers are the ones who know just where we are and how we feel. I have no earthly idea why it needs to be a competition of who's baby is bigger or did things first. Every baby is different and every parenting style is different.

I pray this mother community would start to build each other up and not tear each other down.